I grapple everyday.
When will I comprehend why, how can I be
OK with the ancient wounds of a culture
OK with the confusion between psyche and biology
Your urge is not nature, it’s a long time crafted cultural wound in which you find complacency that lies deep within the collective psyche.
I can’t let others’ confusion confuse me anymore! This will kill me.
When you mimic, you submit to them, you become the oppressor.
We are taught to be a certain way; to exude power, dominance, and lack of awareness.
Mimicking the failures of men will only perpetuate our anguish and make you just like your perpetrators, controllers, and masters. Stop being insecure, be you. Let go and you’re culturally impressed desires will be extinguished. they’ll vanish because they’re an illusion.
It is not “weak” to refuse to participate. That is in the mind of the beholder and if their idea of weak is standing your ground for the health and vitality of your being by not perpetuating a wound and revisiting over and over again the trauma of an entire gender past then that beholder HOLDS ABSOLUTELY NO AWARENESS.
I am tired of this sick place. There is no antidote for their weakness but to not fall victim to the temptation to belong, to be masculine and be emotionless, and severely underdeveloped psychically.
Only the weak crave power and control.